Have you ever been stuck in the snow or mud in your car? If you have, you know you can put your foot on the gas, pedal to the metal, all you want -and the wheels of the car will spin but the car does not move forward. About a year ago, I felt Heart.Beats.Slavery was stuck – just like that. I was staying busy doing all the things, going to all the events, etc. that I had been doing since November 2010, but the production was not moving forward. When a car is stuck in the snow or mud, the car will not move forward unless the driver does something different. Call for help, get out of the car, find people to push, use cardboard or kitty litter to gain traction… something! It became clear to me, I needed to do something different. But I was not sure exactly what, so I put the whole production on hiatus.
There are a couple of airport analogies applicable to this hiatus. One was used during a leadership program I participated in about 20 years ago in NYC. It was something like this: “You can’t buy a plane ticket for your vacation destination without knowing which airport you are departing from. You can’t get to where you are going without knowing where you are now.” The other was shared by Mark Burnett (creator of reality shows Survivor, Amazing Race, etc.) when I saw him speak in Cincinnati a few months ago. It goes something like this: “When a plane takes off, the pilot may know the destination and which direction to go. But between departure and landing at the destination, there will be many re-calibrations of speed and direction to accommodate things beyond the pilot’s control.”
Lots of re-calibration is exactly what I have been doing for the past year. I stopped spinning my wheels, let go of what moving forward looked like, took a good look at where HBS was and looked for ways I needed to re-calibrate. One tool for recalibration was doing a business incubator course via ArtWorks. This was a great way for me to focus on and break down the business basics of what is needed to complete the documentary. With the help of my fabulous facilitator and classmates, I came up with a do-able plan for fund raising. More on that later! The other thing I became crystal clear about was the need for a job change. While I liked my job and was totally grateful for the many years I worked for the hospital, the hours and schedule were a hindrance to the productivity and focus needed to move forward with Heart.Beats.Slavery. For several months I thought that finding a new full-time (but with more flexible hours) job was the answer to that issue. But in the end, I realized what I really needed to do is take a big leap of faith.
That leap of faith means- I QUIT MY JOB to finish the documentary! I know I did what is best for me and the vision for this film because I am filled with a peace that surpasses understanding. I have let go of what my provision looks like, while also knowing I can always work in restaurants or catering (relying on close to 20 years of experience in those areas).
So this post is the official announcement that the HBS Hiatus has come to a HALT.
What’s next? Some priorities are listed below:
~ GRANTS and fund raising: HBS has 501c3 status thanks to being an initiative of the Child Wellness Fund
~ Securing partnership with a production house (to be my trusty film crew) that truly gets the vision of this documentary.
~ Following up with long-time supporters of this vision and procuring new supporters via lots of networking, meetings, conferences, etc.
~ Fund raising campaigns via online crowd funding (like Kickstarter, but will probably be another platform)- stay tuned for details
~ Applying for grants- many grant application deadlines are October and November- need to do research and apply
~ Securing a bookkeeper or accountant to help manage HBS funds efficiently and accurately. If you know someone, please contact me.
~ Writing updates via blog posts like this one more often (goal is 2-3 per month) – future posts will probably be shorter!
Finally, I extend my deepest respect and gratitude to my wonderful board members who have loyally supported HBS over the past 3 years. I will be moving forward with a smaller board/ fewer board members for efficiency purposes. And I know that all my board members past and present will always be strong supporters, cheerleaders, and helping hands whenever possible throughout the future process and production.
As always, thanks to all of YOU who follow on Facebook, Twitter, and through direct personal support. Your prayers and encouragement are sincerely appreciated and make a huge difference in this cause. Stay tuned for more frequent updates!